旧爱??! 嘻...

旧爱??!!你们会不会觉得太奇怪了呢?我有旧爱吗??哈哈哈。。是的，我没有旧爱，只是有过去式的"喜欢对象"!! 那他们算不算是我的旧爱呢?哈哈哈。。。不可给我的darling知道呀?不然怕他不开心。但他不会的，因为他清楚知道在握心目中他占据的地位比任何人多。

哈哈哈~应该从；那里开始说起呢?你们会不会觉得我很不爱脸啊?不是这样的，他们是不值得我提，只是昨晚的两场梦让我觉得在这里说一说他们也无妨呀!!

昨晚的第一场梦是梦见了我中学时候崇拜和小妹妹喜欢大哥哥的他~刘XX。他纯粹是那种单纯的喜欢，根本没有想过去占据他、拥有他。就像钻石戒指一样，他是多么的可贵，因为你没钱，所以你只能远远地眺望着它，欣赏着它的美，一点想触碰的感觉也没有。我欣赏这位大我六岁的学长正好就是这个比喻~那时我是怎样从茫茫人海中看到他的影子呢?当然他是多么的耀眼和多么的闪亮。因为他是我母校学长团的总学长。你看~他是不是很耀眼、惹人注意呢?当然在那时候以小妹妹的眼光，他算是长得老老实实、一副有帅气、有干劲的闪亮学长哦!哈哈哈…就这样我看上了他。那时我只能远远的望着他，欣赏他的一举一动。但远远的眺望也只能发生在每天某个时候的一小时之内。依稀记得，那时我是念下午班的小妹妹而他是念早上班的大哥哥。那时以"铜管乐队要练习"的借口和妈妈说要每天早上八九点回学校练习，已经约好了婷、瑶、霓和瑶一起练习了，不能不去。其实我们是真正有练习的，只是在我崇拜的学长的休息时间，我的一群好友们一定会牺牲小我成全大我的陪我去食堂吃东西，然后"顺便"的看他一眼。哇哈哈...好可爱的我们，好幼稚的我，竟然会做出这样的小动作。现在想起都觉得好好笑。但这些回忆是刻骨铭心的、甜蜜的、无法忘怀的。想起来我的嘴角就会往上扬，开始寻觅那时的美好情景。

还有更好笑的是那时候的我真的有点疯狂了。因为我竟然要求婷去叫她的学长朋友去向刘XX索取他的个人照相。哇哈哈…真的很好笑呢!!现在想起真的觉得自己太幼稚又白痴耶!干嘛无端端向一位不认识的人索取[[照片呢?哦…想起了那时铜管乐团要去英国表演，我只是想带着他的照片一起飞去英国，假如可以在英国找人帮我画肖像。哈哈哈…好无聊的想法。当时幼稚无知的我真的很纯真吧!!当然照片索取不成功，还记得那时他传话回来说"要我的照片就去毕业刊看"。当时有点失望…但还是默默地喜欢着他。我想大哥哥一定不会喜欢我这个小胖妹吧!所以我也没抱着多大的希望。我只是想默默地在他背后凝望着他，别无所求了。

还有就是他FORM 6毕业后，再等着成绩之余，他回来母校当领教。啊??好巧不巧他当上了我Kemahiran Hidup的代班老师。那时我真的超级无敌的兴奋及开心。可能老天爷疼惜我这个小胖妹，所以特别卷顾我。让我有再次的亲密接触。哈哈哈…上他的课程时，我特别的专心，把全部注意力都放在他身上。他给的功课我都做得美美的。哈哈哈…小妹妹就是小妹妹~一心一意的看着他已经足够填补我小小心灵了。过后拿到成绩后我再也没有见到他了，也不懂他在那间大学就读。直到六年后的某一天，我的darling在PJ SS4 附近的Giant偶遇他。那时我身边拖着我心爱的他，而他身边也拖着一位漂亮美丽的女友还是妻子呢??不懂...也不需要懂。老天爷的眷顾让我明白当时纯纯的喜欢永远会在我的回忆里斗转，不必得到他我也可以很开心。清楚记得那天的偶遇除了让我觉得世界真的很小，也让我心中的那股疑惑明了了。那时我真的很开心的看到他身边拖着一位漂亮的女士，一点伤感都没。反而很想冲上前去和他问好。但我还是自制情绪，因为他根本都不知道有我的存在。我的生命里有他的出现是件美好的事~

第二场梦是我梦见我在学院时候应该说是明恋的他~任XX。是的，他绝对不是任达华。他纯粹只是一个让我伤得我比较痛的人了。他的回忆也是刻骨铭心的。不是那种让我有美好回忆的刻骨铭心，而是让我心情有着刺刺痛的感觉。可能已经长大了，所以觉得任何自己喜欢的东西都必须自己去争取。就像玫瑰花，那么棘手的花，假如一不小心的触碰，你的手就会伤痕累累。这就是我能所比喻他和我之间的微昧的情感。是的，他不曾表示过他喜欢我，但为了得到他的注意力，我主动的出击。我会时常的主动SMS 他、我会亲自为他烤饼、我为他写了一封又一封像写日记、像书本那么厚的信。我做了这么多都是为了得到他的关心及关怀。他不但没拒绝我对他所做的一切，；反而偶尔会SMS我和我谈天说地。嗯...当时我真的以为我自己有少少的机会吧!没想到个不久就传来他对我的好友有意思。那时候听到这消息捎来我耳边时，我真的晴天霹雳~好像哭...但我故做坚强，强言微笑地对好友们说我没事，不必担心我。另一方面还要帮好友想办法拒绝任先生，因为我好友已经有拍拖七八年的男朋友了。其实现在回想~觉得当初他会这样做可能是不懂如何拒绝我，所以想出一个烂方法就是喜欢上我的好友然后希望我能知难而退。是的，无可否认的是我的好友的确长得比我可爱、漂亮，她是比较有资格得到别人的喜欢，所以那时的我虽然很伤心绝望，但我告自己是时候放弃他了。他也没有什么值得我再去眷恋的。可能我比较幸运吧!当初被我拒绝第一次爱得宣言的他，第二次他终于当成了我的男朋友~那就是我现在最爱得他。

回想当初的我觉得好笨哦!一头的往泥坑里走，完全不顾及危险还是可以安全行驶?！走过了才觉得这不是自己想走的路。那时的我开始有点憎恨任先生，觉得他好过份哦!为什么他不喜欢但好要接受我为他所做的一切呢?我不是要求我的付出有任何回报，而是我的好心好像被浪费了，而那一年里觉得自己好浪费青春和时间在一个不爱我的人，也觉得自己好愚蠢去拒绝一个那么喜欢我的人。浪费一年去追求没结果的事，倒不如珍惜别人为我付出的一切关怀及爱护。虽然我没有后悔当初的抉择，我只是觉得太可惜了~可惜自己本来就有多一年的时光去享受与Darling的美好回忆!

是的...讲了这么多。我还没有进入正题~我昨晚的梦。我梦见什么呢?我梦见了刘XX和任XX都非常的喜欢我及爱我。刘XX知道我身边还有另一个人，但他默默的没放弃我，过后我还是和刘XX在一起。在一起出去游玩~真的很开心。而另一个梦是梦见任XX太喜欢我了，死缠着我不放~过后我和他在一起后，我开始讨厌他，然后想和他分手时就梦醒了。哈哈...可能我对任XX的印象太差了，他留给我的回忆是多么的不开心，所以有这种变态的梦真可悲呀!

现在的我真的很开心、很快活~因为我身边拥有一个这么爱我的他。希望2010年是我们预算中的好日子哦!!我爱你~darling!

可恶的背包!!

今天的心情不怎么好~

可能是"大姨妈"快来找我了， 也可能是七早八早来到公司就看到那个死人猪头老板。我真的越来越讨厌他了。他那假惺惺的笑容、一副得逞的脸，看了我的拳头就想往他那一副真的很猪头的脸挥去。打他的脸变得更猪头。哇哈哈哈。。。我真的好久没这么讨厌一个人了。上次在旧公司，我讨厌那个"贱女人"讨厌到如骨，我说我真的非常的慈祥、悲哀、宽宏大量了，因为我可以用一年又八个月的时间去忍受她这个贱骨头。我超强的忍耐力真的出乎自己的意料。我真的没想过我能如此忍得。但还是应该谢谢她，谢谢她逼我有转换工作环境的念头、让我有勇气去减肥去面试空姐。真的很感谢她的所激发我、激励我、给予我那股冲动去达成减肥计划。当然现在的我还是会憎恨她当初对我做的种种，但事情已经过去了、已经高一段落了，也是时候我应该放下这个沉重的憎恨背包了。

当我放下一个背包时，同时间我又扛上了另一个"惹人厌的背包"。难道的生命里就一直要扛着背包走天涯吗?我不喜欢这种包袱，假如是家人和好友给我的包袱，我还可以心甘情愿的去接受、去扛。但这个"惹人厌的背包"真的不值得我去在意。我也应该放下它吗?对于放下它绝对是个高难度的挑战，暂时我想我还是有点点办不到吧!

好吃力的生活~假如我生命里没有家人的存在及支持、没有爱人的关怀及抚爱、没有朋友的鼓励及劝告，我想我第一念头是"生活真的没有意义了"!轻生是个错误的行为，我当然不会有轻生的念头。母亲怀胎十月、父亲辛苦赚钱、父母的抚育之恩，我想这已经足够让我不应该有轻生的念头了。一直以来，父亲过世了，有母亲一手供我读学院，我都很努力做个坚强、不会带烦恼给母亲的女儿。父亲去世已经有七年多了，但父亲的影子从来就没有消失。有时，我一个人默默地思念父亲的点点滴滴，一个人独自流泪就是不想惊动已经接受事实的母亲。妈~我真的很爱你!我懂这句话不会从我口中对你说出来，但我都时常sms你吓你说"我爱你"。虽然不是很直接，但还是我最真诚的一句话。妈~我爱你!!

为了妈妈、为了我爱的人，我想我是应该往前看，不应该这样沮丧、不开心了!加油吧!! 可爱的甜蜜吴!!

Last Year Tioman Trip ~

Yes..let us start our journey to Pulau Tioman. Hahahaha…. This Tiaman trip was carried on 29.04.2007 to 01.05.2007. Peter and me drove car from PJ to Johor~ Kluang met Kim Seng and Erica on 28.04.2008. Erica was worked in Johor and stayed in the Kim Seng father's shop house. That day we overnight at Erica's place and the next early morning, we took a long journey with Kim Seng 's friend~ Nicolas and his gf , six person in a car ( oopps... like a "sardin" packed in a small car. wahahaha...). Due to carsickness, Erica and me started getting dizzy when the car came into the tortuous road down and up the mountainside. They started to make some joke because they wish to get rid of ours' carsickness. Luckily...the crooked road was shorter than my imagination. Finally we reached the Jetty where 's the place to Pulau Tioman.
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Here we took a picture during the time for waiting the "Cruise" came. Where's Kim Seng?? Hahaha…he's the cameraman of us. =D

After reaching Pulau Tioman, somebody came to pick us and gave us our chalet key. Ermm..the chalet condition not really bad. Stil had air-condition. Hehehe…for the first in Tioman, we did not have any plan. We just stayed at chalet and we asked somebody worked there, they said behind our chalet had a waterfall. during that time we were so happy and planned to climb up the mountain behind to view the waterfall. we climbed and climbed without stop. Finally we catched up a place with " very small size waterfall". wahahha...bit disappointed but we just played and had fun at the "small waterfall". Took some pictures there. after that we planned to climber up more and more but the time was inhibited because nearly to sunset and the place getting darker and darker and also we can not find any path to let us climbed higher. Therefore, we back to our chalet with wet shirt.

** Foot print from normal beach to black color beach? **

Funny post ~

** Erica and Tam** ~ ** Darling and Tam **

** Tammy + Darling **

** coincidence met my sister's friend in Tioman **

After had fun in beach and make some silly post in front of our only one restaurant~

after taking bath and waiting for dinner~

The next day we went for snorkelling~ ooppsss....i had serious seasickness~ =(

took some pictures in the boat~

* reaching a place called marine ** This marine park no need to snorkel deep inside the sea. We just can stand and view the fish.

** Feeding fishes with bread **

** Darling and Me **

** After from snorkelling and we had a nap in chalet ** ~ ** Woke up and went to have a walk at the beach and the shop there** ~ ** Here i am trying to jump as high as i can, unfortunately.... after 4 to 5 shoots i just success for the jumping.**

some silly post during sunset~

* what's darling doing behind us?*

* Three lovely couples with different post *

* some sunset nice view *

** What ?! i tried to control the boat at land? wahahaha..just a silly acting there. huhu~~ **

The last day in Tioman and before checing out from chalet, we went to walk around once again ~

Took pictures with "high class" chalet~~hehehe...

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Although this Tioman trip a little pack. however, i stil enjoying the time at Tioman. Cheers~~

**期待**

期待十二月份的到来~
十二月份的假期最多了~有圣诞节假期、新年假期、我哥结婚假期、PETER朋友结婚假期。
哈哈哈。。。真的很开心~
度过了这些节日就来到了2009年一月了。
而我们华人的农历新年就落在2009年1月26日。

真的很开心~不懂为何这么期待圣诞节的到来?可能接近年尾了；可能有比较长的假期；可能我期待某些事情；可能因为圣诞前夕我可以拿到花红。哈哈哈~好多可能。但我想以上所有可能都是我期待已久的事。

每每我都幻想着圣诞节时自己都身在雪花纷飞的地方。那有多好呀!可能马来西亚是没有四季的国家，所以通常身在热带国家的我们会特别向往四季的生活。我是其中的一分子。我是多么的渴望可以在冬天时期去享受、去感觉一下下雪的时候。虽然一直听到很多人讲述下雪时分不是我们想像中那么好玩、那么的雀跃万分，那么的开心快乐，而且常听到说冬天真的很辛苦，穿的衣物要特别多、特别保暖，但我那兴致勃勃的心情从来就没被这些细述而冲淡，而且是越加越浓。

可能是受电影和电视剧的影响，所以那种期待可以看见雪花纷飞情景的心情是特别的重。每每都是想着自己可以像电影里主主角一样，用雪花捏成雪人；在宽阔的雪原上追逐喜戏；要不然就是滑雪；在然后在屋里欣赏下雪的情景。想着想着~~又再堕入雪花里的世界了。

说真的~我是个很怕寒冷的人，干嘛我还会去幻想雪景呢?下雪是多么的冷，可能分分钟有零下几十度吧!哈哈~我真的是不怕冷吗?我想我还是会尝试一次下雪的感觉，我才会心甘情愿的。不然我想我真的不会死心的。嘻嘻嘻~~

话说回来~我哥和大嫂会在圣诞节去台湾度蜜月，多么的浪漫~可能他们有机会看到雪景、摸到真正的雪。嗯。。。等我哥他们从台湾蜜月回来后，我要好好审问他们台湾在台湾的情况和霉枚梅看到下雪之类的事。哈哈哈~

好啦~期待圣诞节
圣诞节快乐~~的到来的心情就暂时搁着吧!要继续努力的工作了。

"I Never Had A Dream Comes True" ~ Seven S Club.

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
Once regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
oh, This i know but stil i can't find ways to let you go

* I never had a dream comes true
Till the day that i found you
Eventhough i pretend that i moved on
You'll always be my Baby

I never founf the words to say
YOu're the one I think about each day
And i know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory i cost all sense of time
and tomorrow can never be cause yesterday is all that fill my mind
There's no use loongking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
oh, this i know but stil i can't find ways to let you go

** I never had a dream comes true
Till the day that i found you
Eventhough i pretend that i moved on
You'll always be my baby

I never found the words to say
YOu're the one I think about each day
And i know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be....

You'll always be the dream that fill my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will oh Baby
Thereis no use looking back or wondering
Because love us a starnge and funny thing
no matter how i try and try
I just can't say good bye!
No No No.............
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(A part of me will always be with you....................)

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Yes~ I like this song so much. The singer is Seven S club. Actaully during college time, I am not even know well in english songs, so I am not really like to listen to English songs. However, during first year of college life. We ~ Syherlyn Goh Yau Hie, Cathrey Lee Ling Nee and Tammy Goh Hong Suan were very bored. We thre share a very small and stayed with the " Bao zhou PO and bao zhou Kong". the disadvantage of staying with "bao zhou po" is whatever things you want to do in the house, you need to inform them first especially cooking. The "bao zhou po" not allow us to cook , we just can " lok mee" ~ cook magee mee only. You see~ we three were so pity that time.

Come back to my topic~ why I suddenly felt interested in English song. Due to boredom, so my cutie friend~ cathrey "FORCE' us~ Syherlyn and Tammy to remember the lyrics of the songs she likes. Hahahha… Yes~ this " I never had a Dream comes true" is once of the song force by her. hehehehe...but i need to thank her . because of her forcement i just can remember the whole song song lyric.

why I so love this song? Ermm… may be this is the first english song I can sing it without forgotten;besides, this song accompany my boredom during the first year of college life. In addition, I am that kind of person that never think that my drems will come true during my college. what are the dreams of mine in college time? yes.. i planned to "keep fat". that time i very fat...I felt shy of my weight. i think nobody know my weight becauswe i never tell other. hehehe... sometimes i put more effects to keep fat, but the results came out was not the plan i plan before. This is what i am so disappointed of myself during college time.

The second thing was i am planning to have a flying color for all my exams' results. However, sometimes i can't make it come true because some subjects i studied i felt really difficultities. May be i am not that kind of intelligent student. For every exam i just try my best to do so.

The other dream i nearly can't make it is find a boyfriend during my college time. wahahaha... this is a silly dream. However, i am luckier person, during my last year last semester of studied, i got him~ i have him as my boyfriend. Yeah~~ although that time i also a very dat girl, he still love me so much. i am so touching... Now, i also love him so much!! we are going to plan our wedding in coming next two years. Hope our wedding plan is going smoothly. I love you ~ Darling.

人生~

花是什么东西?!
很多人都不晓得花存在的意义…
而我也是其中一位愚者。那你也是吗?
花存在的意义甚多~它供人欣赏；它可以带给他人快乐，因为当他人收到某某人送的花，他们心中一定是无比的快乐；它供应花蜜给勤劳的蜜蜂；它可以成为他人的生活乐趣、成为空闲时的供养情调…花的好处及意义多不乘数~
虽然花的存在是多么的重要，我喜欢花但并不代表我想拥有它。
因为…花香、花蕾、花瓣…始终会随着风而逝~
美丽的花儿们也会随着时间的催促而枯萎、凋谢…

而人类的生活和情感会随风而去吗?
不懂~总觉得花和人类有所不同…
但仔细地看清楚…花和人类是有少许共同点的。
毕竟花和人类都是有生命的…
花会枯萎；人也会枯萎…
花会凋谢；人也会离开地球的一天!!

世间有没有"长生不老"这四个字呢? 应该没有…
不然秦王也应该活在这世上直至永远…
老天爷是公平的~你活的岁数多长就多长，没有得改变!!
要改变的应该是人类的生存概念吧!
人生短短几十年，为什么逼着自己去想一些不开心的事呢?
人不是应该活的开心吗?
脸常常挂着微笑~那生活不是很快乐吗?那生命不是更有意义吗?那生存之道不是很明朗吗?
别为了一些小事就弄得自己掉进谷里；别为了别人的一句无心伤害就黑着脸；别因为他人的缘故而破坏了自己每天的好心情~
快乐也要生活，不快乐也要生活~ 不如快乐去生活!!
人生的岁月犹如流水般~一去不返!!
所以呢? ~~ 我们呀!! 要活得幸福快乐哦~好好珍惜眼前的一切~因为错过了就错过了，无法挽回!
所以我想对我所认识的人~ 家人以及好友们说声 "我爱你们"!!
有你们的存在我的生命是如此的意义、如此灿烂…希望你们和我一样~快乐去生活。

个人专辑照 ~

在今年年头我去了拍个人专辑照~人家口中的青春照。嘻嘻!!对我来说我真的不好意思称自己的专辑照为青春照。哈哈。。。因为二十四岁才学人家拍照。这年头应该没什么人会像我二十多岁才不要脸去拍青春照吧??！！

我拍青春照实因为我想为自己留下我年轻时的模样，那年老时翻照片来看时我能回忆自己当初是多么的美丽己漂亮(哈哈哈~)，而且还可让自己的孩子欣赏我年轻时美丽的模样。这样我年老是也可算是无怨无悔了，至少我还未自己留下少少的美好纪念~

Merry Christmas ~~ **Jingle bell Jingle bell**

Ding dong bell ~ ding dong bell~~ Christmas song?? Yes..this is the song we sang during childhood period. I am not well in English song. So my "ding dong bell" just followed the rhythms of the music. Actually the song is " Jingle bell~ Jingle ~ Jingle all the ways.." hehehe..


Christmas is coming soon. What present do you all prepare for your own sweetheart~~darling~~honey~~?? Yes..i am just thiking and thinking…what I shall give him as christmas present? I want my present is special. Yes..i like to hand make card. Sure~hand make christmas card sure is my choice. i think my darling sure will feel happy with this special christmas card. Definitely the card is can not buy in any shops.


besides for hand make christmas card, I am planning to buy a new cheaper handphone for my loevly darling. Because I know he's too frugality for his own life. Although his handphone nearly spoil, the key pad already hardly to push and to scroll down and up, he still using it.i know he's prefer to save the money than buy not really useful thing. He said he want to use the handphone until it spoil and really can not press. Yes, i agreed with him that we no need to waste so much money to buy those unuseful things, better save more for our future. hehehe..i listened to him but i stil want to give him a surprise~ BUY HIM A HANDPHONE. yeah~ my handphone also is a old model of nokia. i think i also need to change. therefore, i want to buy a pair of couple handphone for ourselves. Hehehe... really happy!! but i need to wait for my year end bonus, i just can buy us a new handphone. darling ~~ wait ya..wait for my surprise!! muakz...


well~~the Christmas presents have been prepared. Now is the turn for Christmas dinner. Yeah~~ where I shall go for our Christmas dinner?? Let me think thoroughly. However, for last 3 years we just stayed at home for our Christmas. Nothing special. Yes, last year I cooked a delicious Christmas dinner and celebrated with him. every time before Christmas, I asked him where should we go for our Christmas dinner celebration. he just give me a short answer " no need celebration. The price of the food will double up in any restaurants. we better save the money and have our celebration during normal season." wahahahha..yes!! my darling is that kind of people ~ too frugality man!! but I love him. I like his good attitudes and personalities.


Therefore, I think this year Christmas also the same. Cook at home, celebrate at home. Ehhehe…Yes!!I enjoy cooking with darling because my darling really expert in cooking. He really excellent to flavors with condiments. The first I ate his cooking is during my college time. he cooked a delicious and tasty spaghetti for me. I forgot that time was celebration for what, I know I really enjoy the spaghetti cooked by my darling. As he said " don't waste so much money to double pay for the unreasonable expensive Christmas food." Yes, as my conclusion I think I will prepare the menu of Christmas dinner and cook with him, enjoy the food with him. Darling... I love you. Merry Christmas~~

知足常乐~~

我真的可以知足常乐吗?很多时候，我都告诉自己说现在我的生活已经很好了，比起非洲贫困的国家，我算是吃得饱睡得好的人类了。在非洲生活的黑人每餐都肚不温饱，可能喝的都是黄泥水、吃的都是树枝树根抑是一些残渣。他们是多么的可怜。看到他们的生活和自己比较，我就觉得自己真的很幸运了。土生土长在一个没有天灾、经济正在发展的国家已经是一种福气了。那我还能要求些什么呢?是的，我不能再要求什么，但人的心态总是在变化、变换、变幻，我也是如此。当我告诉自己说要知足常乐，想想其他贫苦的国家，我的心就安定下来，我的想法真的会跟着"知足常乐走着。但走着走者。。贪心的观念又再次浮现在脑海里，就会开始怨天尤人，就会开始钻牛角尖，就会开始为自己找一百个理由。然后就会开始不开心、开始沮丧、开始嫌这嫌那，然后开始不满意自己的工作岗位，再然后就很想找到一分工资高、待遇好的公司。一点一滴的不满及怨言使我的生活充满了怨气不快的气氛、霓漫着死气沉沉、没干劲、没动力的生活。

近几个星期来，心情不怎么好的我更加无法控制自己那股"不知足，不常乐"的思绪。最近我又开始埋怨我亲爱的他，埋怨他赚的钱少工钱低；埋怨他帮不到我；埋怨没什么给过我惊喜；埋怨他好像没什么顾及到我。。。我就一直在埋怨。我懂一直以来他都是那位常常陪伴我度过难关的人；我清楚知道他的家境不怎么的富有；我更加知道他的家庭负担是多么的重。之前的我绝对不会常把"钱"字挂在嘴边。因为我顾及他的感受，因为我尊重他；因为我懂他是个有本事的人，只是这匹本事的马还没遇上寻找他的伯乐。但最近不知怎么搞的??我处处针对他说他那样不好，这样不顺眼。。。窝懂我不应该说出口，因为会伤害彼此的感情。还好的是他懂我最近的情绪不稳定，他谅解我的难处，所以他都一一原谅我。

一直以来我都懂每个月他必须给他家人一大半的工资，剩下的又必须存进我们的联名户口，所以他自己所剩无几。每天看他记录每天早餐、午餐和晚餐的费用，我真的很心疼。我告诉过他，我希望他生活不必那么节俭，平常可以吃得好一些。但他告诉我说"我想省下平常的费用，然后星期六和日和我一起出去逛街、陪我吃好吃的东西。"是的，我非常之感动!! 我懂他的用意，所以很多时候一起出去吃得费用我们都是AA计。可能你们会觉得我好笨。你们都会认为男人的责任就是必须支付女人的费用。但在我心里，他事完全不同的。我看到的一切都是他辛辛苦苦为我好、为家人好。所以我觉得他努力的付出是我的骄傲、是我的光荣。当看到他的开心的样子我就会跟着开心。

他常和我说人要活得开心，知足常乐就好。是的，他可以办得到，而我却好像不能。但我有和他约定说我尽量去做好"知足常乐"得角色。我会好好去学习怎样积极的面对我的人生；怎样去办好自己的角色；怎样去掌握自己的前途；怎样才能活得开心、快乐。我的下一个目标就是"知足常乐"!!加油吧!!Tammy ~~在你的身边有着一位这么爱你、支持你的他，你一定能办得到。

**Jess wedding**

yes~~ on 17th October, my hearting beating fast because i am too excited to participate Jess wedding in Sarawak.

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Here~ Peter and Tammy took some funny pictures in the Penang airport during the waiting time to Sarawak

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the next day, Jess wedding~ held in a church.

here came with Beautiful Jess with her lovely father.

After the swearing ceremony, the groom and bride were hand in hand walking out to the churh main door.

During the time groom and bride taking photo with relatives, we also taking photo inside the churh~

Peter ~ Tammy ** Love each other!!

Beautiful girls~~

NOW was the time we took the pictures with the groom and bride.

What?? What we are trying to do?? wahahaha..the man became a band while the girls became the funs of the band.

We were in groom and bride new house new room.

Here we were had some shoot at the lobbie of the hotel we stayed. The photo took before going to Jess wedding dinner.

Peter and Tammy~~

before the wedding dinenr started, we also took some picture there.

Half way of the dinner, we came out and took picture with Jess.

After the dinner, all the guests were gone, we were waiting the tour bus came to pick us. while once again we took some picture with Jess.

After reaching hotel, we took the picture in front of hotel which had many "kucing"s there.

Yes~~ 18th October was the wonderful day. i am so so so excited and happy.wishing Jess and Eddie ~happy forever!!