心情~

假如你问我今天的心情如何呀? 我的答案绝对是 " 我的心情真的很差。

不懂为何近几个星期来我的心情特别的低落。是不是都往不好的反面思索。可能工作上的压力抑是自己给自己的压力呢?我想两反面都是吧!自从两位新老板加入这件公司后，我变得没理由的忙碌起来。他们俩对我的要求工作日月增加，有增无减的。更加糟糕过份的是那个不知是不是会做人上司的猪头老板一直把他自己的份内事往我身上丢，我扛得很辛苦。美丽挺直的肩膀最近变得伤痕累累的肌肉肩膀。我非常之珍惜他们所带给我的"锻炼"。有的锻炼是好的:但有的锻炼却是不必要。而我现在的锻炼绝对是不必要的。为什么我这样说呢?因为他们给我所做的工作大部分都是浪费时间浪费精力的，做了完全对公司的利益一点帮助都没有，但他们为了帮自己在大大日本老板面前邀功，所以绞尽脑汁都要为自己增添高分的表现。

这几个月来我工作得好辛苦。每天都在赶他们催促的东西，而我自己的事就日月累积。我真的觉得他们很刻薄我；我真的开始厌倦这里的工作性质了。之前我还告诉自己说忍耐多一年。累积多点经验，那找别的工作也应该会容易一些吧!!那时的我想清楚后心情也平静了，也开始为自己的前途而努力。但现在呢?我开始对现在的岗位完全失去兴趣及信心。那份热忱的心已经不再存在了；那份愿意为公司付出的心也逐渐被他们用了冷水狠狠地扑灭了。

上个月和我的就老板去公干时他透露了一些事给我知道。他说我的直属新上司被大大日本老板叫去开会然后告诉他shuo说他五个月来的表现不是很好，他的试用期展期多两个月。那时的我是真的有点开心，心想假如他的试用期失败了那多好呀!!一个度月的今天，我的旧老板在近期内已经开始交棒给他了，开始吩咐他做他的负责的事了。依我的判断，我猜想那新的猪头老板应该已经过了试用期了吧!唉~~我真的好失望、好沮丧、好担心。。失望的是他那种懒散的表现都会成功过了试用期；沮丧的是以后在公司的日子一定不好过；担心的是那个新的猪头老板一定会给我很多工作把我累死吧!!


我在想最近心情不怎么好的我应该也是因为这件事吧!!我真的好灰心哦。之前我告诉自己说假如那个猪头新老板真的成功过试用期的话，我会辞职不干，然后找新的工作。但以现在的情形来看，经济不景气，很多人都被"炒鱿鱼"，很多人都在失业，假如我偏偏在这时候辞职那不是很对不起他人；那不是有可能找不到工；那不是很好吧!! 唉~~我想我还是忍辱、吞了这口气吧!等经济好一些才慢慢开始找工作吧!!加油吧~甜蜜!!你一定能的!!

Stress~~

recently i dont know why i am so stress?! Is the stress comes from my boss or i am giving myself ? sometimes i really can not take a good breath during working hours. non-stop busy~~

Before the 2 new bosses join my company, i stil have some free time to chat with colleagues. Now?? oppss..i am pretty busy..Why i am so busy?? because i need to report to 4 bosses. One is Japanese boss, one is the old boss whose is the one i respect most, one is Malay boss ( he's my direct superior now ) and another one is Chinese boss ( he's in charge in production).

Japanese boss is that one feeling hard to deal with because whatever he say you need to follow. what instruction come from him, you just can follow. Yes~ i am that one who always need to follow his instuction. He's my big big boss. His upper line is another Japanese boss ( big big big boss~ managing director ). japanese guy is that kind of people you just can not do any objection on his decision making. haiz...this is the thing i felt defficult to deal with.

The old boss is the boss i respect to him the most. because started from beggining i joined this company, he teached me many things. However, after i joining for half year more, he's retired . The lucky thing is he hired back by big big big boss under one year contract. His contract was terminated on next year June. Alhought i am respect to him, somehow he always scolds me without reasons. Sometimes when he's in down mood, you will be scolded by him if you are going to ask him some questions. otherwise, you just kept the questions until his mood is going to smooth. I am smart girl~~ I will solve problem myself just asking him my decision correct or not. Working with him nearly 2 years, i scolded by him about 3 to 4 times only. i think i am the lucky one who seldom make him angry!!

The Malay boss is the one i not really happy with. why?? last time i thought his is that kind of boss really good for employee. i thought he's good and excellent in his job. however, time can prove everything. 5 months passing, during this 5 months he just pushing his job to me let myself alone to do, to follow.... whatever thing or job come from Japanese boss , he sure push to me. WHat?? What kind of boss?? i started getting frustrated on him. feeling disappointed... sometimes some jobs not really need to do, just waste our time, he can use his authority to tell and explain to Japanese that the jobs are not really useful. but............ he's not...he's just accepted whatever decision from Japanese. I really angry that he always push the things to me. So i become the second busiest person in our company. i am not to blame on how busy was I. just i got my own jobs, not only to handle their job. I tell myself is the Malay boss pass his probation period, i am going to resign and find another better job. ermm..i know nowsaday everybody was fired by company, economy reccession.... you all will scold me!! however this is my decision. I make it a tousand months ago....

Another chinese new boss seldom touch on me because he 's in charge in production. but sometimes he's also that one always come to "kacau" me.

Anyway, I don’t know when I will finish my busy life. Just waiting another company to give me another chances. I really hope that my efforts will be appreciated by my superior. Wish myself a very good luck. Hope everything is going smoothly. Tomorrow would be another beautiful day!!

Company Trip ~ Chiang Mai

Last year 14th to 17th July, i had joined company trip to Chiang Mai. Yes~ i am luckier person who can go for company trip during her probation period. my colleague~ Kelvin Low (salesman) told me that last time even he joined for half year more , company did not provide him the chance go for company trip. I am so appreciated the chance has been given to me. Thank you so much ~ My boss ( Cheang Yik Ming )

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here is the elephant farm.
This photo shows that the elephants were playing around the river. They use the trank sucked the water ( not really clean river water ) and sprayed on who are crossing by. Hehehe..i am so smart~ because i never near that place. i just took picture far away and zoom in. Frankly speaking, i am that kind of people not really interested on animal especially feather animals. I also dont know why i did not have any "Love" feeling on animal. Though i dislike animal, i am that kind people very kindhearted, gentle.... truely...honestly~~

Here was the shows from the "cutie" elephant. Honestly, i dont think elephant is "cutie" animal. i decribed as cutie because my lovely colleagues just screamed as loud as they can" wa~~~ they are so cute". whaT??? how can use " cute" to describe the giant zise elephant. May be...but i dont think so..... For the performances from those well trained elephant , i realized that elephants also can be the smart animal. The excellent and amazing part i really love is ELEPHANT CAN DRAW.I am felt unbeliavable that elephant can use the trunk for drawing. "well trained~~good~~smart~~intelligent~~....." these words i am using to praise the elephants. really~~ i love this show.

after the elephant shows we went to the souvenier shop.hehehe..here is me~ a silly post!!


Again~~ second silly post at somewhere else. hahaha..i forgot that place. just remember that that place is a temple and can make wish there. inside the temple has many bells, is for tourist to make their wish. ermm... although i want to have dream comes true, i lazy to ring all the bells there ( they said after ringing all the bells there, the dream just can come true), so i just playing around there.

here is the opium farm. but now no more opium there. just a farm full flower. again~~ a silly post with colleague ~ Ong Ong ( ong Gaik peng ).

This is my boss ~ Cheang Yik Ming. He was hired back under with company. He's a very nice boss, teach me many things. hehehe.. now..he still my boss. his contract is until next year 2009 June. " I want to kill him?" hehehe... a joke with him.

A beautiful girl~ Tammy with beautiful orchids.

Now again and again~~ silly post with another colleague ~ Ong Seong. He's the one who very friend with me in the company. he's helpful person. Always help me whenever i am in trouble. Many funny and silly post with lovely colleagues~~

Yeah~~ I am at long neck village!! need to give tips after taking photo with them =(. hehehe...

I am now at umbrella manufacturer. Yeah~~ the umbrellas are so big!! the painting of umbrella is so beautiful!!

In K room?? wahahah...i think all of us something going wrongly that time. Why in other country also want to have a singing time?? hahaha..yes..i am the follower. so i also become something wrongly person. The night full of cheerful sounds. Nice night~~

In the tour bus~ Took some funny post with colleague~ Yee Ting.

here is the place near to LAOS.

forget this place name. wahahaha..

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Hiking to Light House

Last year someday with sunny day, we ~ Jasmine, John , Peter and me had a successful hiking trip to Mukka Head~ Light House. That day felt so excited, never think that need to bring sunblock. therefore, the consequences was ?? i became a "black woman". hahaha...not really black, just took off the shirt , i can clearly notice the sunburn on my body. anyway...that time really happy and enjoying.

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this photo we took on the boat to light house. extremely excited!! Peter ~ my lovely darling become our cameraman. cheers~~

we climbed about half and hour more just reached the top of light house. Yeah~~ John opened the door ~ same with us~ Peter and me also opened the door and went outside of the light house to have a mountain and sea view.

Yeah~~ Finally we reached the top of light house. Really tired. sweating and sweating... non-stop though we were rest for some times.

some silly posts during the time we step up the stair to the top of light house. All of us so " Pan Ye". kekeke....

Here also inside the light house~~

Sea view~~had some shoots with Peter, john and jasmine.

What was John did?? Really silly act~~

Here is the lower site of light house.

After enjoying the time at light house. Almost 2 pm, it's the close time for light house. After hiking down from light house, we were playing around the beach.

Finally....after two to three hours more hiking back from light house there, i reached and finished my today's journey. really thankful to John!! because he's the one know the wonderful Light house. a memorable and enjoyable Hiking Day!! Cheers~~

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坚守爱情 II

那天天气晴朗，darling提议说去BUKITGENTING。BUKIT GENTING 是位于槟城，而不是GENTING HIGHLAND。话说之前darling很早之前已经计划带我去那儿走走，只是有时天不做美或是遇上时间上的碰撞，所以这个计划迟迟都不能实现。终于在26.10.2008的傍晚时分大概六点十五分我们俩就浩浩荡荡的往BUKIT GENTING驶去。到那儿时已经黄昏六点半左右了。我们就赶紧冲下斜坡的亭子里看日落和拍照。

这是我冲下亭子时的模样~~darling说后面有一到曙光很特别所以要我留步然后拍照。

Darling在扮有型~~

日落真的好美~~

又再次在日落的见证下~我们镇守着彼此的爱情!!我爱你~darling…

在四年前的十月二十八日，你向我表白我也因此成为你的女友!在今年2008年10月28日，我们相识到相爱已经有四年了。时间不是很长，但我们的爱情来得不易。也因此我们都很珍惜彼此、都很为彼此努力维持这段美好的感情!!我很荣幸能拥有你这么一位这么体谅、容忍、包容心宽阔的男友。我真的太爱你了~darling!! 祝福我们四周年纪念快乐!!祝我们的爱情细水长流~~爱情万岁!!

惊喜~~

我已经很久很久没给我亲爱的他任何惊喜了。差不多每个星期见面，也没什么特别想给他惊喜的。而且平常工作后都很累了，回到家还要努力做运动，所以都没什么时间做些特别的东四送给他。在某天的晚上我翻开了日历，看了看~~哦!!原来九月十七日是我公司的假日。其他公司都有工作，所以我在想不如那天弄些什么的送给我爱得他。想了有想~~想到了。我可以做饼干给他。就这样决定了!!

那天我一早醒来就去买做饼干的材料。回家后很兴奋的开始今天的旅程~~秤米粉、打发牛油、加蛋、加面粉、加巧克力chips…终于弄好了。

这是还没有拿去owen烤之前的模样~~

这是已经烤好的饼干~~

这是放进罐子里的cookies~~

这是我花了一个晚上做的卷纸花~~

卷纸花 + 一罐饼干~~ 给我爱的他的惊喜！！
当我爱的他收到这份礼物时，真的很开心、很高兴我所谓他准备的一切。但很可惜的是他吃了几片饼干后，收在公司的抽屉里。当他拿出来吃时，却发现到饼干发霉了。真的好可惜！！虽然我做的饼干很难啃，但他还是默默的吃。我真的好爱你喔!!darling…

零缺点? 优点缺点均有?

您们想要做个零缺点的人类还是优点缺点均有的人类呢?应该说有大多数的人都是优点缺点兼有的人类吧!!可能九十巴仙的人都不曾思考自己需要成为怎样的人类吧!包括我在内。是谁启发了我呢?当然不是普通人就能给我这样的概念，他在我的心中是份量十足的。

在一个星光灿烂的夜晚，我和他相约到咖啡豆休闲站饮一杯好久未品尝的拉特咖啡。在幽静气氛的熏染下，我们开始寻找话题来带动幽静的气氛。他问我说:”你想当一个零缺点或是优点缺点兼有的人呢?”那时的我真的一头雾水，不知该如何回答。但是经过他一番的解释后，我才完全明白他要表达的是什么。他说”在学院生涯时期他选择当个零缺点的人，因为他想要求十全十美，不让自己犯下大错。但相反的当他做到十全十美的时候，同时间他也发现到十全十美的人往往遇上了困境时都得不到朋友的帮助。而且永远都不会被人发现自己的存在，永远都是那么的渺小。就因为没缺点别人就不会发现你犯错；也就等于了没犯错别人就不理会你存不存在。就因为优点掩盖了所有,所以没有人会特别在乎你和注意你。反而是做个优点缺点兼有的人好处多的很。比如说当你犯错时，人家会教导你、给予你忠告；当你跌倒时人家会扶你一把!!而当你的成绩或事情办不怎么样时，别人家就会怂恿的来称赞你，说你办得很好；当你真正有了优越的成绩时，友人就会说你真的是太厉害了”。

听了他的一番搜寻得来的分析及解释后，我才恍然大悟!!原来我身边出现了非同寻常的人物!哈哈哈。。他的思想真的与众不同!别人没想过的事他却费心思去研讨。但很可惜的是他得不到结论~是否应该成为一位零缺点或是优点缺点兼有的人呢?


其实依我说，无论是要求零缺点的人或是优点缺点的人都好，只要有自己的风格，活得开心就好!!各有不同；各有各的好处。比如说零缺点的性格就因为要求十全十美所以就可以轻易的把犯错率减得最低。除此之外就因为有要求，零缺点的人能把自己锁定的位子而清楚地迈向目标。要求不犯错的优点往往把自己的生活逼得紧绷透不过气来。怎么说呢?要求获得美丽漂亮的成绩，要求零缺点的十全十美精神会一直钻牛角尖的为目标驶去，全力以赴的不放弃念头；不让自己有一丝的挫败感；而且不让错误的烦恼找上了自己辛苦铺好的途径；这种要求十全十美的优越感分分钟会带给自己负面的痛苦，精神上的煎熬!!相反的这份坚持不懈的精神很快的就会让自己换取了优秀的成果。就因为要求不犯错，所以要求零缺点的人无法把最好的或最不好或是最特别的表现出来。平平淡淡；平平无起的规律生活无法让别人把目光投掷在他们的身上，然而别人也不会轻易把注意力放在要求零缺点不犯错的人。表面上要求零缺点的不屈不挠精神往往让别人误会成什么事都不必得到别人的认同、不必别人的帮忙。久而久之别人也因此得到了结论就是要求零缺点的高傲态度根本都不需要别人的支持与帮助。也因此慢慢忽略了要求零缺点的人存在及感受。其实话说如此，倒不如站在他那儿想想。要求零缺点的十全十美的精神真的有如此的高傲吗?真的如此的坚定不需要别人的辅助吗?看穿了人类的弱点。。。人类嘛!!无论是要求零缺点的人或是优点缺点兼有的人，每时每刻都需要朋友们的支持、鼓励以及帮助。

相反的，一位优点缺点兼有的人往往会吸引到万人的注视。正如和要求零缺点的对比，优点缺点兼有的人往往都会把自己的优点或缺点表露得一览无余。所以别人会把目光移向光芒或暗淡的地方。因此当他们一犯错或者是有少许的表现，别人都会跟随他们的背影，给予他们适当的鼓励和劝说。比方说在他们犯错时，别人就会注意到他们的缺点然后从中矫正他们；当他们在做某些事而遇到挫折时，朋友们就会主动上前给予辅助和劝导顺利的帮他们度过难关；当他们在课业上或是事业上遇到瓶颈时，朋友们会在他们接近失败的途径时，给予全力的支持、鼓励和意见。一句的点通；一言的关心；一语的触发；一词的感动，这些浑身述都会带给一个将近失败和崩溃的人的最好方法。这种无形中的帮助和劝告往往都会在一线之差触醒正在沉没在大海漂洋的寻找者。

在咖啡豆休闲站饮咖啡的我和他话谈了这么多，要求零缺点的抑是优点缺点兼有的都解释了。研究了、观察了这么多年人的本性与性格，但他却说他得不到结论。他说他一直以来都扮演着要求零缺点的角色，但却得不到别人的支持与赞同，所以他想换一下生活方式去当一个优点缺点兼有的人类。我在想我绝对是那种他所形容的”优点缺点兼有的人”，因为我是一百巴仙需要朋友在身边支持及关怀的人，但有一点我是必须强调的是，我是非常固执的人，我会为自己要做的事坚持不懈，而去很多时候我都不允许自己有失败的时候，因为我承受不了失败的痛苦及沮丧。我就是这种另类的人类!!哈哈哈。。。

那你们会选择当一位十全十美的人呢?还是当一位优点缺点兼有的人呢??