学习~

**辛苦得到的**
就更要好好珍惜…因为不是每个付出都会如我们所愿的。

**曾经拥有的**

就别忘了好好保存着…因为曾经让我们难以忘怀的事实美好的。

**属于自己的**

就别轻易说放弃… 因为不是每个人都这么幸运比别人多一次机会。

**已经失去的**

就别再耿耿于怀了…因为明天会更好，就把失去的当作美好的回忆收藏在我们心中最隐密的地带吧!!

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切记~~无论什么时候，我们都必须学会放下、学会珍惜你身边所有的事物。

勇敢的往前看、别只顾回头看，因为当你回头看时，前面的绊脚石往往就会把你绊倒。

往事只能回味~

最重要的是现在~~

现在一定要活得开心快乐。

无论明天的路好走或否...我们都必须坚强不屈的走下去。

有困难...别低头走面对，挺起胸膛了望前方。

有煎熬才有进步的空间。

好好学习每次绊倒的良机，可能将来有一天你会恍然大悟、你会感谢那次绊倒的良机。

因为它让你认识自己、让你从新估计自己、让你有能力在往前走。

加油~希望天下的孩子们都会开心快乐的去寻找生活吧!!

我爱你们~~

** 他和她的故事 ** (Part IV )

有两个同居密友是丁加奴人，他俩都很尽责带他们全去了好多好玩有不错的地方~ 有瀑布、有森林、有著名旅游圣地、有水坝…还有好多风景优美的地方。
在丁加奴的第二个晚上，他们全都在"赢胜"的家BBQ。
那晚好丰富…每个人都很尽情享受美味的BBQ餐。唯独她…
只有她...没有心情参与他们的活动及玩乐。因为"大姨妈"找上了她，她的肚子痛得要命，所以整晚都闷闷不乐的…
那天她好想和他们尽兴的玩乐，但因为"大姨妈"的作怪而且那时刮着冷风…当冷风往她身上吹去时，她整个人在发抖…
所以她只有默默地选择躲在她朋友家里厨房写信、阅读。
那时全部人都觉得奇怪。为什么她无端一个人 独自在写信、阅读呢?全部朋友的头上出现了好多问号"是不是友人弄生气她了呢??!!"。
当时她好想解释，但就是因为她脸皮薄嘛!!不好意思和朋友说明"大姨妈"找上门来了…呵呵…
虽然她不不能参与朋友的活动但她会偶尔出去看看朋友玩得多么愉快。
过后她收到妈妈的来电，就上楼谈电话了。
再过后，她好友~茉莉花上来楼上问个究竟?终于茉莉花知道她整晚闷闷不乐的原因了~她不是因为别人弄气她而是"大姨妈"找上她了。
当时茉莉花顺便转告她说他一直很关心她，他一直问茉莉花"她发生了什么事?她在哪里啊?她为什么不出来和他们一起玩乐啊?...
茉莉花给他问烦了就回答他说"倒不如你自己去问她本人啦!" 哈哈哈…

好绝妙的回答~她懂茉莉花想向她表达些什么。
可能茉莉花想让她知道他还是有在关心她的存在的。
是的…当茉莉花告诉她关于他关心她的行动时，她心里感到有点安慰~ 因为她不曾奢侈的想过他还是喜欢她、关心她。
那时的她有少少的开心，肚子的疼痛也好了些…好神奇的力量哦!!
那晚，她和茉莉花很早就就寝了，而他和朋友们继续出去逛"丁加奴"的夜晚。

丁加奴的旅行很快地就结束了。
但他们的下一站是她的家乡~槟城。
虽然丁加奴之旅很开心、很好玩，但她非常的紧张因为她怕招呼她的朋友不周到。还好的是槟城不只是她一人招待他们，还有另一个朋友"文献"的合聘招待。

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槟城之旅有待继续~

减肥的第八天~

今天感觉真好~
好像瘦一点点哦!!嗯...还是错觉呢?不懂啦...
只是觉得我的手臂再瘦点、大腿再瘦很多、屁股也是要瘦很多...这样我的减肥才算成功吧!!

虽然今天是减肥第八天，但一想到减肥的第十一天的晚上有要放肆多一天了。因为第十一天也就是星期六，我会在家里帮darling庆祝生日(虽然他的生日是在星期日， 嘻嘻~~)，我也举办了BBQ"大食会"。 哈哈哈...听了就有点恐怖， 对吗?是的...但darling生日我要尽兴的为他庆祝，我不能只是为减肥而不替darling庆祝生日呀!对不...哈哈...我又在替自己找借口吗?不不不...是真心的要帮darling庆祝的。

为什么突然间 会想到BBQ这个计划呢?呵呵...那就要多亏molly的提醒了。因为molly在new year eve 时在家中举办了BBQ。所以这次darling生日，我也一不做二不休的动起来~来一场BBQ庆祝会吧!!而且我还从secret recipe 订了mooist chocolate cake给darling了。

朋友们..别担心!!我不会拿自己的身体来当实验的。虽然是庆祝会，但我知道我正在减肥中，我不会乱吃、乱啃的...因为我不想白费我一直努力的减肥计划。

加油吧!!Tammy... 你一定能的!!

darling~~提前祝福你:
**生日快乐**
**心想事成**
**永远的那么英俊潇洒** ~哈哈哈...

** 他和她的故事 ** ( Part III )

在新的一个学期里，除了好好的在学业上加把劲，她也慢慢地在调适她和他的友谊。因为她真的不想失去一位这么重视她的异性朋友。
在同一个屋檐下生活，不只是有她和她朋友一起住，还有一对双胞胎姐妹。
生活久了，很多时候难免会擦出火花的…
在那一个学期里，每当她看到双胞胎姐姐对他好时，她心里是有点不开心的…
而且有时还会听到双胞胎姐姐对他讲一些肉麻的话是，她也有点生气…
不但如此…每次看到双胞胎姐姐帮他按摩时，她更加不愤…
这些不开心、有点生气、不愤都是因为妒忌吗??还是因为她已经渐渐的喜欢上他呢??
是的…日久生情~每天都见面、谈天说地…真的难免会在一瞬间产生静电，或者可以说是化学反应吗?
在化学里，无论什么东西都可以混合在一起但却会有两个反应~ 一就是当两件东西混淆在一起时他们会变化成另一种事物；二呢?就是根本不能混合在一起，假如两物触碰在一起就可以产生可怕的爆发力。
在人类里，化学的两个道理都会起作用~在两人融洽的钩在一起，那就代表了他们会很自然的走在同一条线上；第二呢?就是当两个不同世界的人走在一起时，一定会有所磨擦，然后就是触电，再然后就慢慢适应对方，过后在某一天他们双方都对彼此产生了不同的反应，那就是说"一触即发"，犹如汽车需要火花塞来打火，而人类也需要那么一点火花来启动彼此的感觉。

是的…她想她是属于第二例子的人类了。
她是需要那么一点点火花就可以把她的情感点燃~而且会烧得轰轰烈烈…

当时或者说她真的已经喜欢他了，只是她自己也没发觉吧!!
所以她也只能看着别人对他好。当初是她放弃他先，现在想挽回好像有点尴尬吧!!她也坦然面对和承担当初所做的后果。
渐渐地…他和她的感情也从尴尬情景化为开心的画面。
也就是说她和他的感情增进一步了吗??也不能这样说~只是友谊稍微比之前好。
但他已经没有像之前对她那么好了。只是中规中举!没有特别好也没有特别怀…就好像普通朋友般的对待。她没要求他对她像以前那样超出友谊般好，但她却很 希望他可以从新评估她、了解她，好让他和她的感情更上一层楼。
她只是想…但并没有做~她完全没有任何行动告诉他她开始喜欢他了。
他和她的友谊就只是维持在一般的普通朋友。

一个学期又会结束了~他和她的同居密友们决定去"丁加奴"游玩旅行。
因为这也是最后一年可以拥有长达三个月的假期。他们决定好好利用去旅行，去一些他和她从没到过的地方。
而且刚好"丁加奴"是同居密友的家乡，他们可以享受地主之名带领他们前往好玩的旅游点。
就这样他们决定了~在开始假期的第一个星期他们就浩浩荡荡的乘巴士往"丁加奴"冲去!!

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故事的发展有待继续~哈哈哈….

** 他和她的故事 ** ( Part II )

开始放下她的第二个月就是她的生日。
虽然他已经决定放下她了但他还是想买份生日礼物给她。
他在好友的陪同下，他买下了一只可爱的狗狗娃娃给她。
当天生日时，她最期待的不是他的礼物而是"另一个他"的礼物。
她感到非常的失望，因为"另一个他"不但没送他礼物，反而还缺席她的生日庆祝会。
在那时候，她开始灰心自己所对"另一个他"的好。
当时，她也少少的感动~感动他送的礼物~可爱的狗狗。
虽然从小到大她都不会对附有毛毛的玩偶或者是玩具有多大的好感(可以说她根本不喜欢毛毛的公仔)，但她也很开心收到他送的狗狗。
后来得知他送的那一只狗狗的价钱很昂贵时，她顿时感到非常歉意。
因为她知道和他做不成情侣是她一手造成的，她更觉得不知怎样面对他?!
但她非常感谢他对她的好。

一个月一个月又过了…
在农历新年过不久的某一天，"另一个他"sms她要她给她好友的电话号码，因为"另一个他"说他喜欢她的好友，所以想从sms开始了解对方然后追求对方。
当时的她真的晴天霹雳…事情怎么会发展到这地步呢??
她从来就没想过"另一个他"会喜欢上她的好友。
在那段时间，她想了又想…是不是她做错了什么呢?是不是她根本就不曾在"另一个他"的心中出现过呢??不可否认的是她的好友的确比她漂亮可爱多了。

那段日子，她真的很痛心…她没责怪他人的意识，只是讨厌自己无聊的痴情、憎恨自己无法自拔…
她懂…她清楚知道在那段无助的日子，她身边的好友们也一起为她痛心、觉得很不值得、为她担忧，怕她处在痛苦之中，但奈何 啊?她好友们能做到的就只是给予最大的支持己关怀。
想了好久~她终于想通了。是的…在"另一个他"的心中根本就没有她的存在，为什么她还是要死缠拦打呢??
是的…新年后就是在学院生涯的最后一年了。
她告诉自己无论怎样都要把"另一个他"从心中狠狠地拔起。

在新的一个学期里要好好珍惜身边所有的事与物….

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故事的发展有待继续。嘻嘻...

A greatest happen in 04.01.2009~~

My little sister~ Tyng, Thank you for your concerning.

Tell you a great thing is I found my darling 's certificates. Yeah~~ i am so thankful...Thank you that my praying is heard by god. Thanks god!! help me found out the "dissapeared certificates".

Molly.. sorry that to let you worry abt this thing too. finally, i found it.

tell you all what's a miraculous happen~ how can i find out the certificates??actually not me found out , is my darling. hehehe....

Yeah~ this morning , 04.01.2009 we woke up abt 11am, and then went out to lunch. i suggested to buy spaghetti mee , to buy car sun shade, to buy..... so we decided to Tesco for shopping. After a happy round shopping, we brought all the things to car boot. We just take the sun shade out and put into the car. When darling put the car sun shade into the seat pocket ( the pocket behind the passenger seat ), his hand touched on something and took out and see. ""ooppss.... darling!! you see. what is this??" asked by darling. From my first sight, i really can not recognize what's that. i am just thinking and thinking. suddenly...my mind pop up " what's?? what's a great thing for today... we found out darling's certificates." i cried again... this time not because of sadness just because of happiness. Darling kiss on me and said "now we two no need so down about my certificates, let us cheer up for today."

What's a miraculous happen. We searched the certificates start from Christmas until New Year stil can not find it. however, when we start to give up every hope from our life, we got it and found it unexpected. This is truely and reality...until today I still can not believe I can find out the certiFIcates. UNBELIEVABLE~~

Fortunately..luckily…thanks to all blessing~~ helping me to find out darling's certificates. This is the first greatest thing in 2009. I will appreciate what's the thankful thing given back to me. I promised that I will keep all my important stuffs for my life. i will not lost them again.

At the time I knew we found the certificates, I seem likes get rid of thousand tones of stones. I felt happy that I have been exonerated from the thousand tones of burden. Yeah~ I had extricated from the unhappy moments in Year 20088. Cheer up ~ Tammy. You shall have a wonderful and marvellous BulL Year ~ 2009.

THANKS GOD ~ hearing all my blessing.

THANK YOU To MOM AND FAMILY ~ Helping me searching the certificates although we can not find it during that time.

THANKS DARLING ~ thank you for your lucky hand to touch on the "expected thing ~ certificates" at the pocket of passenger seat. Hope this year ~ Bull Year is your lucky year. I wishing your life full of prosperity.

THANK YOU TO ALL MY FRIENDS especially Tyng and Molly ~ thank you for consulting during my tough, giving me your concerned when I am down. Anyway… Thanks a lots.

** I Love You All **

A sadness and unforgetable happen in 31.12.2008.

A really sad thing is~ the last half and hour of 2008 ( 11.30pm of 31.12.2008 ) I cried hardly just because I lost my darling 's original certicates.
I felt really sad….cried…I felt guilty that I promised darling before to take a good care of his stuff.
however….. I just lost his very very very important thing in his life.
I asked myself " why I am so careless??why I can make this important things lost?? ……."
so many "why"s came out in my mind….
I am just thinking and thinking….

The worst results came out from my mind was" I may throw the certicates during the time I tidy my room before my brother's wedding. I may be mixed up the useless thing with the certificates and accidentally threw them."
I really hate myself…why so important carelessness??

I really don’t know what I can do now…
I just can sad…just can help darling write a formal letter to his College and University to require and re-issue the certificates.
however…. What I am so cencerning now is I worrying the College and University not allow us to require one more time from them.

sigh…. Why darling 's fate was so unlucky for 2008??
non-smooth life…non-stop incidents occurance…uncontrol and repeated car reparing…what I can say is "everything just going out of our control…"

other than sad………I just feeling sad…. I cannot accept what I had did. Hence, I just cried for this……
cried non-stop…… cried until 11.45pm….. Darling just came to confort and soothe on my sadness.
ermm.. I know darling was the person who very sad on his certificates lost but he stil need to pacify on me.

This is the greatest thing he done very well in all the times.
he can do…he can stay calm… he can be composed in all situations…….
I am so proud of him~~

At the time i cried , he told me " certificates already lost…we can do nothing now… without certificates I can not find a new job, but I can gain experiences now. After a period of time, I step up and step up again…I become a manger. At that time, I no need any certificates to interview. i just need to have a greatful experiences on my job now. otherwise, nothing can help me. i know this is my true fate...i just accepted it. what can i do now??i just can put as many effort as i can in my recent job. so my darling...please...dont cry again...2009 is coming soon. so please cheer up...come on~~ Happy New Year. Happy New Year. Happy New Year~~.... "

after a cheerful sound came out with a awesome sentences "Darling... can you accompany me to countdown in the car because i was hungry now. Can accompany me go for supper now??hehe..."

wahahaha... Yes~~true!!this is my lovely darling . He always acts fun and quite interesting personnel. i love you this and also love him so much~~always cheer me up when i am down. i appreciating what he done for me. really~~

Yes~~ sure that I accompanied my darling went for supper.
After washing my mournful face, we went out for supper.

Yes~~ I t hink I am so lucky girl because I got a meticulous boy friend ~ my lovely darling.

**no matter how tough we are…he is the one always cheers me up**

**no matter how serious of quarrel.. He is the one who can stay calm and composed in bad situations**

**no matter what…he is the one who care me the most**

I really love you ~ darling.

I will not let this thing again. Can I say I have no excuse to let it happen.
I promise you that I will be careful all the times.

I love you forever~darling.