**期待**

期待十二月份的到来~
十二月份的假期最多了~有圣诞节假期、新年假期、我哥结婚假期、PETER朋友结婚假期。
哈哈哈。。。真的很开心~
度过了这些节日就来到了2009年一月了。
而我们华人的农历新年就落在2009年1月26日。

真的很开心~不懂为何这么期待圣诞节的到来?可能接近年尾了；可能有比较长的假期；可能我期待某些事情；可能因为圣诞前夕我可以拿到花红。哈哈哈~好多可能。但我想以上所有可能都是我期待已久的事。

每每我都幻想着圣诞节时自己都身在雪花纷飞的地方。那有多好呀!可能马来西亚是没有四季的国家，所以通常身在热带国家的我们会特别向往四季的生活。我是其中的一分子。我是多么的渴望可以在冬天时期去享受、去感觉一下下雪的时候。虽然一直听到很多人讲述下雪时分不是我们想像中那么好玩、那么的雀跃万分，那么的开心快乐，而且常听到说冬天真的很辛苦，穿的衣物要特别多、特别保暖，但我那兴致勃勃的心情从来就没被这些细述而冲淡，而且是越加越浓。

可能是受电影和电视剧的影响，所以那种期待可以看见雪花纷飞情景的心情是特别的重。每每都是想着自己可以像电影里主主角一样，用雪花捏成雪人；在宽阔的雪原上追逐喜戏；要不然就是滑雪；在然后在屋里欣赏下雪的情景。想着想着~~又再堕入雪花里的世界了。

说真的~我是个很怕寒冷的人，干嘛我还会去幻想雪景呢?下雪是多么的冷，可能分分钟有零下几十度吧!哈哈~我真的是不怕冷吗?我想我还是会尝试一次下雪的感觉，我才会心甘情愿的。不然我想我真的不会死心的。嘻嘻嘻~~

话说回来~我哥和大嫂会在圣诞节去台湾度蜜月，多么的浪漫~可能他们有机会看到雪景、摸到真正的雪。嗯。。。等我哥他们从台湾蜜月回来后，我要好好审问他们台湾在台湾的情况和霉枚梅看到下雪之类的事。哈哈哈~

好啦~期待圣诞节
圣诞节快乐~~的到来的心情就暂时搁着吧!要继续努力的工作了。

"I Never Had A Dream Comes True" ~ Seven S Club.

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
Once regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
oh, This i know but stil i can't find ways to let you go

* I never had a dream comes true
Till the day that i found you
Eventhough i pretend that i moved on
You'll always be my Baby

I never founf the words to say
YOu're the one I think about each day
And i know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory i cost all sense of time
and tomorrow can never be cause yesterday is all that fill my mind
There's no use loongking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
oh, this i know but stil i can't find ways to let you go

** I never had a dream comes true
Till the day that i found you
Eventhough i pretend that i moved on
You'll always be my baby

I never found the words to say
YOu're the one I think about each day
And i know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be....

You'll always be the dream that fill my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will oh Baby
Thereis no use looking back or wondering
Because love us a starnge and funny thing
no matter how i try and try
I just can't say good bye!
No No No.............
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(A part of me will always be with you....................)

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Yes~ I like this song so much. The singer is Seven S club. Actaully during college time, I am not even know well in english songs, so I am not really like to listen to English songs. However, during first year of college life. We ~ Syherlyn Goh Yau Hie, Cathrey Lee Ling Nee and Tammy Goh Hong Suan were very bored. We thre share a very small and stayed with the " Bao zhou PO and bao zhou Kong". the disadvantage of staying with "bao zhou po" is whatever things you want to do in the house, you need to inform them first especially cooking. The "bao zhou po" not allow us to cook , we just can " lok mee" ~ cook magee mee only. You see~ we three were so pity that time.

Come back to my topic~ why I suddenly felt interested in English song. Due to boredom, so my cutie friend~ cathrey "FORCE' us~ Syherlyn and Tammy to remember the lyrics of the songs she likes. Hahahha… Yes~ this " I never had a Dream comes true" is once of the song force by her. hehehehe...but i need to thank her . because of her forcement i just can remember the whole song song lyric.

why I so love this song? Ermm… may be this is the first english song I can sing it without forgotten;besides, this song accompany my boredom during the first year of college life. In addition, I am that kind of person that never think that my drems will come true during my college. what are the dreams of mine in college time? yes.. i planned to "keep fat". that time i very fat...I felt shy of my weight. i think nobody know my weight becauswe i never tell other. hehehe... sometimes i put more effects to keep fat, but the results came out was not the plan i plan before. This is what i am so disappointed of myself during college time.

The second thing was i am planning to have a flying color for all my exams' results. However, sometimes i can't make it come true because some subjects i studied i felt really difficultities. May be i am not that kind of intelligent student. For every exam i just try my best to do so.

The other dream i nearly can't make it is find a boyfriend during my college time. wahahaha... this is a silly dream. However, i am luckier person, during my last year last semester of studied, i got him~ i have him as my boyfriend. Yeah~~ although that time i also a very dat girl, he still love me so much. i am so touching... Now, i also love him so much!! we are going to plan our wedding in coming next two years. Hope our wedding plan is going smoothly. I love you ~ Darling.

人生~

花是什么东西?!
很多人都不晓得花存在的意义…
而我也是其中一位愚者。那你也是吗?
花存在的意义甚多~它供人欣赏；它可以带给他人快乐，因为当他人收到某某人送的花，他们心中一定是无比的快乐；它供应花蜜给勤劳的蜜蜂；它可以成为他人的生活乐趣、成为空闲时的供养情调…花的好处及意义多不乘数~
虽然花的存在是多么的重要，我喜欢花但并不代表我想拥有它。
因为…花香、花蕾、花瓣…始终会随着风而逝~
美丽的花儿们也会随着时间的催促而枯萎、凋谢…

而人类的生活和情感会随风而去吗?
不懂~总觉得花和人类有所不同…
但仔细地看清楚…花和人类是有少许共同点的。
毕竟花和人类都是有生命的…
花会枯萎；人也会枯萎…
花会凋谢；人也会离开地球的一天!!

世间有没有"长生不老"这四个字呢? 应该没有…
不然秦王也应该活在这世上直至永远…
老天爷是公平的~你活的岁数多长就多长，没有得改变!!
要改变的应该是人类的生存概念吧!
人生短短几十年，为什么逼着自己去想一些不开心的事呢?
人不是应该活的开心吗?
脸常常挂着微笑~那生活不是很快乐吗?那生命不是更有意义吗?那生存之道不是很明朗吗?
别为了一些小事就弄得自己掉进谷里；别为了别人的一句无心伤害就黑着脸；别因为他人的缘故而破坏了自己每天的好心情~
快乐也要生活，不快乐也要生活~ 不如快乐去生活!!
人生的岁月犹如流水般~一去不返!!
所以呢? ~~ 我们呀!! 要活得幸福快乐哦~好好珍惜眼前的一切~因为错过了就错过了，无法挽回!
所以我想对我所认识的人~ 家人以及好友们说声 "我爱你们"!!
有你们的存在我的生命是如此的意义、如此灿烂…希望你们和我一样~快乐去生活。

个人专辑照 ~

在今年年头我去了拍个人专辑照~人家口中的青春照。嘻嘻!!对我来说我真的不好意思称自己的专辑照为青春照。哈哈。。。因为二十四岁才学人家拍照。这年头应该没什么人会像我二十多岁才不要脸去拍青春照吧??！！

我拍青春照实因为我想为自己留下我年轻时的模样，那年老时翻照片来看时我能回忆自己当初是多么的美丽己漂亮(哈哈哈~)，而且还可让自己的孩子欣赏我年轻时美丽的模样。这样我年老是也可算是无怨无悔了，至少我还未自己留下少少的美好纪念~

Merry Christmas ~~ **Jingle bell Jingle bell**

Ding dong bell ~ ding dong bell~~ Christmas song?? Yes..this is the song we sang during childhood period. I am not well in English song. So my "ding dong bell" just followed the rhythms of the music. Actually the song is " Jingle bell~ Jingle ~ Jingle all the ways.." hehehe..


Christmas is coming soon. What present do you all prepare for your own sweetheart~~darling~~honey~~?? Yes..i am just thiking and thinking…what I shall give him as christmas present? I want my present is special. Yes..i like to hand make card. Sure~hand make christmas card sure is my choice. i think my darling sure will feel happy with this special christmas card. Definitely the card is can not buy in any shops.


besides for hand make christmas card, I am planning to buy a new cheaper handphone for my loevly darling. Because I know he's too frugality for his own life. Although his handphone nearly spoil, the key pad already hardly to push and to scroll down and up, he still using it.i know he's prefer to save the money than buy not really useful thing. He said he want to use the handphone until it spoil and really can not press. Yes, i agreed with him that we no need to waste so much money to buy those unuseful things, better save more for our future. hehehe..i listened to him but i stil want to give him a surprise~ BUY HIM A HANDPHONE. yeah~ my handphone also is a old model of nokia. i think i also need to change. therefore, i want to buy a pair of couple handphone for ourselves. Hehehe... really happy!! but i need to wait for my year end bonus, i just can buy us a new handphone. darling ~~ wait ya..wait for my surprise!! muakz...


well~~the Christmas presents have been prepared. Now is the turn for Christmas dinner. Yeah~~ where I shall go for our Christmas dinner?? Let me think thoroughly. However, for last 3 years we just stayed at home for our Christmas. Nothing special. Yes, last year I cooked a delicious Christmas dinner and celebrated with him. every time before Christmas, I asked him where should we go for our Christmas dinner celebration. he just give me a short answer " no need celebration. The price of the food will double up in any restaurants. we better save the money and have our celebration during normal season." wahahahha..yes!! my darling is that kind of people ~ too frugality man!! but I love him. I like his good attitudes and personalities.


Therefore, I think this year Christmas also the same. Cook at home, celebrate at home. Ehhehe…Yes!!I enjoy cooking with darling because my darling really expert in cooking. He really excellent to flavors with condiments. The first I ate his cooking is during my college time. he cooked a delicious and tasty spaghetti for me. I forgot that time was celebration for what, I know I really enjoy the spaghetti cooked by my darling. As he said " don't waste so much money to double pay for the unreasonable expensive Christmas food." Yes, as my conclusion I think I will prepare the menu of Christmas dinner and cook with him, enjoy the food with him. Darling... I love you. Merry Christmas~~

知足常乐~~

我真的可以知足常乐吗?很多时候，我都告诉自己说现在我的生活已经很好了，比起非洲贫困的国家，我算是吃得饱睡得好的人类了。在非洲生活的黑人每餐都肚不温饱，可能喝的都是黄泥水、吃的都是树枝树根抑是一些残渣。他们是多么的可怜。看到他们的生活和自己比较，我就觉得自己真的很幸运了。土生土长在一个没有天灾、经济正在发展的国家已经是一种福气了。那我还能要求些什么呢?是的，我不能再要求什么，但人的心态总是在变化、变换、变幻，我也是如此。当我告诉自己说要知足常乐，想想其他贫苦的国家，我的心就安定下来，我的想法真的会跟着"知足常乐走着。但走着走者。。贪心的观念又再次浮现在脑海里，就会开始怨天尤人，就会开始钻牛角尖，就会开始为自己找一百个理由。然后就会开始不开心、开始沮丧、开始嫌这嫌那，然后开始不满意自己的工作岗位，再然后就很想找到一分工资高、待遇好的公司。一点一滴的不满及怨言使我的生活充满了怨气不快的气氛、霓漫着死气沉沉、没干劲、没动力的生活。

近几个星期来，心情不怎么好的我更加无法控制自己那股"不知足，不常乐"的思绪。最近我又开始埋怨我亲爱的他，埋怨他赚的钱少工钱低；埋怨他帮不到我；埋怨没什么给过我惊喜；埋怨他好像没什么顾及到我。。。我就一直在埋怨。我懂一直以来他都是那位常常陪伴我度过难关的人；我清楚知道他的家境不怎么的富有；我更加知道他的家庭负担是多么的重。之前的我绝对不会常把"钱"字挂在嘴边。因为我顾及他的感受，因为我尊重他；因为我懂他是个有本事的人，只是这匹本事的马还没遇上寻找他的伯乐。但最近不知怎么搞的??我处处针对他说他那样不好，这样不顺眼。。。窝懂我不应该说出口，因为会伤害彼此的感情。还好的是他懂我最近的情绪不稳定，他谅解我的难处，所以他都一一原谅我。

一直以来我都懂每个月他必须给他家人一大半的工资，剩下的又必须存进我们的联名户口，所以他自己所剩无几。每天看他记录每天早餐、午餐和晚餐的费用，我真的很心疼。我告诉过他，我希望他生活不必那么节俭，平常可以吃得好一些。但他告诉我说"我想省下平常的费用，然后星期六和日和我一起出去逛街、陪我吃好吃的东西。"是的，我非常之感动!! 我懂他的用意，所以很多时候一起出去吃得费用我们都是AA计。可能你们会觉得我好笨。你们都会认为男人的责任就是必须支付女人的费用。但在我心里，他事完全不同的。我看到的一切都是他辛辛苦苦为我好、为家人好。所以我觉得他努力的付出是我的骄傲、是我的光荣。当看到他的开心的样子我就会跟着开心。

他常和我说人要活得开心，知足常乐就好。是的，他可以办得到，而我却好像不能。但我有和他约定说我尽量去做好"知足常乐"得角色。我会好好去学习怎样积极的面对我的人生；怎样去办好自己的角色；怎样去掌握自己的前途；怎样才能活得开心、快乐。我的下一个目标就是"知足常乐"!!加油吧!!Tammy ~~在你的身边有着一位这么爱你、支持你的他，你一定能办得到。

**Jess wedding**

yes~~ on 17th October, my hearting beating fast because i am too excited to participate Jess wedding in Sarawak.

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Here~ Peter and Tammy took some funny pictures in the Penang airport during the waiting time to Sarawak

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the next day, Jess wedding~ held in a church.

here came with Beautiful Jess with her lovely father.

After the swearing ceremony, the groom and bride were hand in hand walking out to the churh main door.

During the time groom and bride taking photo with relatives, we also taking photo inside the churh~

Peter ~ Tammy ** Love each other!!

Beautiful girls~~

NOW was the time we took the pictures with the groom and bride.

What?? What we are trying to do?? wahahaha..the man became a band while the girls became the funs of the band.

We were in groom and bride new house new room.

Here we were had some shoot at the lobbie of the hotel we stayed. The photo took before going to Jess wedding dinner.

Peter and Tammy~~

before the wedding dinenr started, we also took some picture there.

Half way of the dinner, we came out and took picture with Jess.

After the dinner, all the guests were gone, we were waiting the tour bus came to pick us. while once again we took some picture with Jess.

After reaching hotel, we took the picture in front of hotel which had many "kucing"s there.

Yes~~ 18th October was the wonderful day. i am so so so excited and happy.wishing Jess and Eddie ~happy forever!!